First of all; I'm an idiot
Second; I'm a Blonde
Third; I'm so sorry
It took me like five months to realize that I was comparing a great friend to a complete asshole.... yeah not a good comparison.
So I remembered that I can stop worrying and enjoy the fact that if I stop worrying about everything it's a lot easier to be positive.
I mean I look at it this way; I have great friends, great family, and snow... which okay not a huge fan of snow but at least it's pretty lol.
And I mean if I worry I'm stuck in this little world of constant drama and it's just stupid and pointless.
So I guess I think I can just leave the long ago past in the past and hopefully still have a chance of not ruining a good friendship and move into the future with bright perspective. So yeah.... lol